Hi, I’m Michele
I called out to Jesus years ago when my life was challenging in every area… marriage, finances, my kids were struggling with health issues, and I absolutely hated my job.
At the time, I was always on the move, working and taking care of the household and kids and I didn’t have a moment to myself. I began to understand from prayer and reading scripture that Jesus was telling me to rest.
As I began to journal the messages I felt that Spirit was whispering to my soul, I intuitively heard Jesus call me as a “Bride of Christ.” This terminology felt strange, and my mind fought these words for weeks. It sounded as if I thought I had some strange and even inappropriate connection to Jesus, but I couldn’t have felt more distant from him.
Years earlier, I had a life-changing experience of unconditional love when I reached out to Jesus, but I had no idea how to stay connected to him. I had only gotten lost in the rules and rigid thinking of the church. While others claimed to have a relationship with Jesus, I had been praying for years, I had no idea how to hear from him. I was numb, exhausted from the burdens I unknowingly carried and I felt far from God.
I began journaling as a way for me to understand the messages I was receiving in my prayer time and scripture readings. It took me years to understand that Jesus was methodically walking me through the steps of a traditional jewish wedding, with each step holding keys for my personal and spiritual awakening.
Jesus met me where I was, stuck in trauma response to emotional abuse. I was told to honor my parents while they dishonored my soul. Even as an adult with my own family, I had spent years of my life walking on eggshells as I balanced life, keeping the peace at my own expense. I fawned, was often frozen, and I was dissociated from my own emotions.
Jesus told me I was worthy and deserving of unconditional love, not the transactional love that I grew up with. He called my soul beautiful in his sight when I had no idea who I was except for who I tried to be to earn love.
He led me to clean up my diet and to begin to honor my long-buried emotions. I learned to journal, to self-reflect and to take radical responsibility for my life. I learned to un-wind messages of unworthiness, fear of God, and putting others first no matter the cost. I learned to re-set my nervous system.
